😒 Scrubs and Side Eyes

🩺 I Hope I Was a Good Nurse Today

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It was one of those days.

My feet are throbbing.
My brain feels like it’s still running.
And I’m replaying everything I did… and everything I didn’t.

I felt like I wasn’t as helpful as I should’ve been.
Like I was always one step behind.
A little panicked. A little scattered.

And I hate that feeling.

I had just gotten off the phone with his fiancé.
Still processing that conversation…

Turned around to talk to the LNA—

And then… boom.

Face to the floor.
Like a ton of bricks.

Fall number three.

Between 9am and 2:30pm.

That moment where your stomach drops and your brain is trying to catch up to what just happened.

But you move anyway.

Because that’s what we do.

I’m confident in my decision to send him to the ED.
That part, I stand on.

I even called before the end of my shift to check on him.
They said they’d call me back.

I’m still hoping he’s okay.

The rest of the night?

Strangely… smooth.

Everyone was in bed by 9:30.
After a day like that, it almost didn’t feel real.

They even had an ice cream sundae bar earlier—
and it was a hit.

Way more people showed up than expected.

Moments like that remind you there’s still a little joy in the middle of all the chaos.

But in between all of that…

There’s still the usual:

The wandering.
The restlessness.
The constant,
“Can I go to bed?”
“I don’t want to be alone.”

The quiet needs that never really stop.

And then there’s the part that stays with you after your shift ends:

Did I document enough?
Did I miss anything?
Did I take care of that skin tear correctly?

Did I do enough?

I keep coming back to one thought:

I hope I was a good nurse today.

Even if I felt panicked.
Even if I didn’t feel on top of everything.
Even if it wasn’t perfect.

Because some days in healthcare aren’t about being flawless.

They’re about:

Some shifts feel smooth.

Some feel like survival.

And some… feel like both at the same time.

— Scrubs & Side Eyes
Just trying to keep it together one shift at a time… with a little side eye.